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RIVER’S FIRST HAIRCUT (aka MOMMY’S FIRST BIG EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN)

July 24, 2017

Why giving our baby's first haircut was emotional.

Yesterday we gave River his very first haircut. It sounds like no big deal and maybe it shouldn’t have been but any firsts for parents (maybe more so for new parents) seem like Earth shattering events. Ok, maybe that’s just me…?

River was born with a full head of hair and like most babies he lost a lot of it in his early months. As a result, his hair was patchy, stringy, and grew at odd lengths. Christopher and I went back and forth about when to cut his hair but just kept putting it off. We wanted to grow it long but the longer it got the more awkward and messy it looked. Recently it’s been poking his eyes so we finally decided a haircut was needed.

I DON’T KNOW IF I’M READY FOR THIS

Part of my hesitation to cut his hair was because I wasn’t ready to let go. I wasn’t ready to let go of his “newborness”. This was the last of his hair he was born with and the thought of cutting it all away was breaking my heart. I put it off as long as possible but I knew a haircut was necessary. So after I came home from my shoot yesterday, I gave Christopher the OK.

SNIP SNIP

To say River hated having his hair cut would be an understatement. He cried as Christopher quickly ran the clippers through his hair. When it was my turn to trim the top with scissors, he whimpered through it. Before I could even regret my decision, it was all over and there the 3 of us were with little baby hairs scattered around us and River with a lot less hair.

baby's first haircut
BEFORE

Giving River his first haircut at home. Baby's first haircut at home. Baby's forst haircut at home.

AFTERS

FROM BABY TO BOY

It didn’t really hit me when I gave him a bath. It still didn’t hit me when I took photos of him with his new hairstyle. And I was fine when we went through his bedtime routine and put him down for the night. It finally hit me when we were finishing dinner and I was staring at him sleeping on the baby monitor. He looked like such a big boy now. And then I sobbed. And sobbed. And sobbed some more. It wasn’t just the haircut. This month was a very emotional one for me as a mother. He started crawling, sitting up unassisted, saying mama and umma (mom in Korean), and just yesterday he pull himself up to stand. He hit so many big milestones in the last couple of weeks that I kept finding myself saying ‘it’s going by too fast’ multiple times a day. As I watched my baby sleep, the realization that he’s becoming more a boy and less a baby hit me hard and the flood gates swung open. I think even Christopher was shocked because I’m not much of a crier. But feeling for the first time like you’re losing your baby is heart crushing.

07.23.2017 RIVER’S FIRST HAIRCUT

I saved his hair. I did. I put it in a Ziploc bag and labeled it 07.23.2017 River’s First Haircut. I couldn’t bear to just toss his newborn hair in the trash. I never thought I’d be that mother but then again I never thought I’d be a mother so there you go. Not going to lie, I’m still pretty emotional about it today (I may or may not be sobbing as I’m typing this) and I’ll probably be emotional all week leading up to him turning 7 months this coming weekend. Knowing he’s now closer to being a year old hurts my fragile mommy heart.

God help me the day he goes off to college. *insert sobbing emoji here*

How did you handle your baby’s first haircut? Any tips for this new mom on how to cope with fleeting time?

 

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  • Reply Maye July 24, 2017 at 12:05 PM

    i’m sobbing right here with you!! I remember Evelyn’s first haircut, I kept her hair too. I forgot to keep bradyn’s cause kelly surprised me w/ a bald baby when I got home from work and threw away his hair. waaahhhhh!! Since I am done having kids, i just look at thier baby pictures all the time and give them EXTRA cuddles and kisses ALL THE TIME!! I think I will be emottional for ever. haha sorry if that doesn’t help. love you!! I will be your sappy sobby friend for life.

    • Reply Nina July 24, 2017 at 12:09 PM

      I’m never gonna tease you again for being a crybaby! LOL :P I’m so sad for you that Kelly threw away Bradyn’s hair! Waaaahhhhh! Seriously, who would have thought this would be my life now. haha Love you!!!

  • Reply Caroline July 24, 2017 at 1:27 PM

    You’re not crazy. I have both boys’ hairs in baggies. Well Lucas hair is technically not his “first haircut” but whatever don’t let me relive that one. Haha. See FB comment.

    • Reply Nina July 25, 2017 at 2:08 PM

      haha Still can’t believe that happened with Lucas. You get one last first haircut with Liam! xo

  • Reply Aunty Patsy July 24, 2017 at 1:39 PM

    First of many milestones in his life and there’ll be tears at every one. You’re his Mom and it comes with the territory. It’s a hard-hearted Mom that doesn’t feel like you do at her child’s every milestone. Sending you huge hugs.

    • Reply Nina July 25, 2017 at 2:09 PM

      Thank you, Aunty Patsy! I’ve turned into a complete sap when I became a mother. haha Huge hugs back to you from LA! XOXO

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